Friday, January 22, 2010

CAN I....



can i just give up.....
can i not do this anymore...
can i not pretend that i still want it....

SERIOUSLY.... CAN I??










Wednesday, January 20, 2010

Its been a while

It been a while since the last time i'm here.. been pretty busy lately with lots of stuff... hehehe got my itouch ♥♥♥ yippie!! Another resolution manage to accomplished.

So as usual new toys.. need more attention to figure things out and make it personal according to my taste and preference.. hence less time updating here.. well the next few weeks gonna be very hectic week for me... with lots of chances, transfering to do.. haiyah.. but for the better

Aloha!!!!

Saturday, January 9, 2010

Love Story



We were both young when I first saw you
I close my eyes and the flashback starts
I'm standing there on a balcony in summer air
See the lights, see the party, the ball gowns
See you make your way through the crowd
And say hello, little did I know

That you were Romeo
You were throwing pebbles
And my daddy said stay away from Juliet
And I was crying on the staircase
Begging you please don't go

And I said
Romeo, take me somewhere we can be alone
I'll be waiting, all there's left to do is run
You'll be the prince and I'll be the princess
It's a love story, baby, just say yes

So I sneak out to the garden to see you
We keep quiet 'cause we're dead if they knew
So close your eyes, escape this town for a little while

Oh, oh, oh

'Cause you were Romeo,
I was a scarlet letter
And my daddy said stay away from Juliet
But you were everything to me
I was begging you please don't go

And I said
Romeo, take me somewhere we can be alone
I'll be waiting, all there's left to do is run
You'll be the prince and I'll be the princess
It's a love story, baby, just say yes

Romeo, save me, they're trying to tell me how to feel
This love is difficult, but it's real
Don't be afraid, we'll make it out of this mess
It's a love story, baby, just say yes

I got tired of waiting, wondering if you were ever coming around
My faith in you was fading
When I met you on the outskirts of town

And I said
Romeo save me, I've been feeling so alone
I keep waiting for you but you never come
Is this in my head, I don't know what to think
He knelt to the ground and he pulled out a ring
And said

Marry me, Juliet, you'll never have to be alone
I love you and that's all I really know
I talked to your dad, you'll pick out a white dress
It's a love story, baby, just say yes

Oh, oh, oh, oh

We were both young when I first saw you

Does anyone even....

It has been 9 days into the new year.. but everything seems still the same. Same old me same old non-resolved problem... I dont know how should i put it.. i've been talking about my problem with lots of people.. to the extend i dont wanna talk about it anymore...

well dont blame me.... nothing good has come out of it. I feel like giving up the idea.. but i can see n fell that its going to take a toll on me..

well lots of people advised and advised me but none really wanna take the action of trying to do something about it.. trying to help me to resolved it. Nobody wanna go all out to really help me.. well i think that's because they dont gain anything by helping me.. no monetary return or what so ever..

well what can i say... somehow i just realised... it just hit me straight in my face.... NOBODY LOVES ME... NOBODY CARES...

BOOOHOOOO.... wake up and smell the air.. STAND UP.. FACE THE WORLD... I CAN DO THIS... I CAN FACE THIS.. I'VE BEEN DEALING WITH THIS FOR MANY YEARS NOW.. STOP HURTING MYSELF.. CANT U SEE NO ONE CARES... U HAVE TO TAKE CARE OF YOURSELF.. NO ONE IS GOING TO RESCUE YOU.. OK... BREATHE.... U CAN DO THIS.. THERE ARE OTHER PEOPLE WHO HAVE BIGGER PROBLEMS THAN YOU....


SNAP OUT OF IT...
PUT A HAPPY FACE EVEN IF U JUST PRETENDING
DONT SHOW THAT U'RE WEAK...
EVEN DEEP DOWN YOU JUST WANNA....