2010 is just around the corner

HUHUHU!!! today is the second last day of the year.... in order not to jinx next year with bad vibes (since lately i've been gloomy).. I'm making myself happy by surrounding myself with happy things... me... happy n shiney me... hence my blog needs to be happy to.. and what else makes me more happy??!!??? yes.. yes... CARTOON.. CARTOON!!!!

oh first the new year wishes...



WELCOME 2010....
may you bring all the happiness, health, $_$, luck
and all the good things in life for me...


AND NOW!! the CARTOONS!!!

i love 'em.. cant get enough of 'em...

err.. what's up doc...

chicken little.... its been a while since i last watched this

Lumpy.. lumpity lee...

SHREK!!!! cant remember how many times i watched Shrek Trilogy...



Ohh... Who lives in a pineapple under the sea
"Spongebob squarepants"
Absorbant and yellow and porous is he
"Spongebob Squarepants"



my loving Pooh Bear..



naughty penguins... but i adore them...
&
last but not least.... from our local scene



GENG.. the movie.. with UPIN & IPIN....


Aahhhh... my happy place



anyway... HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!

Bad dreams

I've been having bad dreams for days now... and its effecting my emotions lately.. i know that its just a dream but the feelings, the tense, the anger are so real..

its like i'm there and going through these emotions all over again and that feeling still lingers around when i woke up this morning and still lingers until now...... oh yes.. i've been telling myself to ignore it lots of times... i've been telling that to myself for decades now.. well it went off... for a while...

I dont like to talk about it.. keep it deep down.. lock inside a box.. throw away the key, pretending like nothing matters, like i'm all happy n shiney but... sometimes.. it does surface back.. especially when i have to face certain people.. *sigh...

"What would that mama do
If she knew bout me and you
What would that Daddy say
If he saw me HURT this way"

A.B.S.O.L.U.T.E.L.Y N.O.T.H.I.N.G ! ! ! !

Life

Life NEVER seems to be

the way we WANT it to be,

but we live it the best we can....

There is no perfect life,

but WE CAN FILL IT with

PERFECT MEMORIES!!

Emptiness

Sometimes....

• I felt like there's a big hole in me... even when i'm with my frens or family... i dont know why i feel like that or why it happened. All I know.. i felt so lonely...
• it felt like i'm looking for something or someone to find me... like i'm lost or something.. like i'm just sitting here.. waiting for someone to rescue me.. too tired to walk.. too tired to breathe... make me whole again...
• i wonder... what happened to me that make me all dark n twisty... then i walked down my memory lane... and i remembered everything that happened and it hurts...
• .... i did something that i'm not proud of... just to let go of these feelings that been bugging me...

Most of the time....

• i just pretend to be happy... to put a big.. huge smile on my face so that no one knows what actually going inside...
  
• i cloud myself with things... with stuffs to divert my attention
• i wanted someone to be with me so that this feelings dont haunt me...
  
• it works.... then when i'm back in my room.... all alone... i felt it again..
  
• people said to me.. be strong... but do they have any idea how strong i've been.. how long i've been dealing with this...
• I am invincible... what a great shield I put up
  

But now... I'm lost...

I'm down with flu..

But somehow i remembered this clip which i saw it on this chinese movie... acted by Cecilia Cheung and Louis Koo entitled

"The Lion Roars 我家有一隻何東獅"

then the translation of what the wife is telling/saying/warning to her husband are:-

Quote:

from now on you'll love no one but me,
you'll spoil me, never lie to me,
fulfill all your promise, always tell me the truth,
never argue with me,
have faith in me, protect me, stand up for me,
share my laughter, wipe away my tears,
promise that I'll always be the only one in your eyes,
the only one in your dreams and
the only one in your heart.....

The husband answered.. OK!! (with a scared face)


Can any one promise me all that???

Its DECEMBER!!!

So fast oooo..... December already.. meaning another year gone by... *im getting older.. sigh...

And somehow it felt like I haven't achieved anything yet...

well not exactly nothing la kan...

POSITIVE THINKING MODE: let me list down what i've achieved this year...

1. Finish paying my car !! Huhuhu *time to get a new one!!

2. Bought a DSLR

3. Learn how to take cool pictares.... *still working on it...

4. Have my own blog

5. Make fish curry!! A big thanks to my aunt *CIK.. timecheh

6. Buy things ONLINE!!! Wey!! dont laugh ok.. I'm still a noobie in that area ... and help a friend to buy something also...


waaa... not bad eii.. hehehhe... accomplished somethings and learn something new along the way.. ok... tak jadi nak feel down then...


OK.....

I'm gonna make new resolutions now... *waa so early wanna start ahhh and this gonna cost me a lot of

1. Get an Itouch!!!!

2. 18-250mm

3. F58

4. new big cage for my kitties

5. new car

6. color printer

7. ... to be added later....

HUH!!! what a semi long Expensive list...

I WISH I WAS BORN RICH!!! UWAAA....

this means that I have to save sommore $$$$$ lorrr...