Wednesday, December 30, 2009

2010 is just around the corner

HUHUHU!!! today is the second last day of the year.... in order not to jinx next year with bad vibes (since lately i've been gloomy).. I'm making myself happy by surrounding myself with happy things... me... happy n shiney me... hence my blog needs to be happy to.. and what else makes me more happy??!!??? yes.. yes... CARTOON.. CARTOON!!!!

oh first the new year wishes...



WELCOME 2010....
may you bring all the happiness, health, $_$, luck
and all the good things in life for me...


AND NOW!! the CARTOONS!!! http://matcuoi.com

i love 'em.. cant get enough of 'em...
http://matcuoi.com


err.. what's up doc...

chicken little.... its been a while since i last watched this


Lumpy.. lumpity lee...



SHREK!!!! cant remember how many times i watched Shrek Trilogy...



Ohh... Who lives in a pineapple under the sea
"Spongebob squarepants"
Absorbant and yellow and porous is he
"Spongebob Squarepants"



my loving Pooh Bear..



naughty penguins... but i adore them...
&
last but not least.... from our local scene



GENG.. the movie.. with UPIN & IPIN....


Aahhhh... my happy place
http://matcuoi.com


anyway... HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!

Tuesday, December 29, 2009

Bad dreams

I've been having bad dreams for days now... and its effecting my emotions lately.. i know that its just a dream but the feelings, the tense, the anger are so real..

its like i'm there and going through these emotions all over again and that feeling still lingers around when i woke up this morning and still lingers until now...... oh yes.. i've been telling myself to ignore it lots of times... i've been telling that to myself for decades now.. well it went off... for a while...

I dont like to talk about it.. keep it deep down.. lock inside a box.. throw away the key, pretending like nothing matters, like i'm all happy n shiney but... sometimes.. it does surface back.. especially when i have to face certain people.. *sigh...

"What would that mama do
If she knew bout me and you
What would that Daddy say
If he saw me HURT this way"


A.B.S.O.L.U.T.E.L.Y N.O.T.H.I.N.G ! ! ! !

Tuesday, December 22, 2009

Life


Life NEVER seems to be

the way we WANT it to be,

but we live it the best we can....

There is no perfect life,

but WE CAN FILL IT with

PERFECT MEMORIES!!

Thursday, December 17, 2009

Emptiness

Sometimes....
  • I felt like there's a big hole in me... even when i'm with my frens or family... i dont know why i feel like that or why it happened. All I know.. i felt so lonely...
  • it felt like i'm looking for something or someone to find me... like i'm lost or something.. like i'm just sitting here.. waiting for someone to rescue me.. too tired to walk.. too tired to breathe... make me whole again...
  • i wonder... what happened to me that make me all dark n twisty... then i walked down my memory lane... and i remembered everything that happened and it hurts...
  • .... i did something that i'm not proud of... just to let go of these feelings that been bugging me...
Most of the time....
  • i just pretend to be happy... to put a big.. huge smile on my face so that no one knows what actually going inside...
  • i cloud myself with things... with stuffs to divert my attention
  • i wanted someone to be with me so that this feelings dont haunt me...
  • it works.... then when i'm back in my room.... all alone... i felt it again..
  • people said to me.. be strong... but do they have any idea how strong i've been.. how long i've been dealing with this...
  • I am invincible... what a great shield I put up
But now... I'm lost...

Tuesday, December 8, 2009

I'm down with flu..

But somehow i remembered this clip which i saw it on this chinese movie... acted by Cecilia Cheung and Louis Koo entitled

"The Lion Roars 我家有一隻何東獅"



then the translation of what the wife is telling/saying/warning to her husband are:-

Quote:
from now on you'll love no one but me,
you'll spoil me, never lie to me,
fulfill all your promise, always tell me the truth,
never argue with me,
have faith in me, protect me, stand up for me,
share my laughter, wipe away my tears,
promise that I'll always be the only one in your eyes,
the only one in your dreams and
the only one in your heart.....


The husband answered.. OK!! (with a scared face) http://matcuoi.com


Can any one promise me all that???

Wednesday, December 2, 2009

Its DECEMBER!!!

So fast oooo..... December already.. meaning another year gone by... *im getting older.. sigh...

And somehow it felt like I haven't achieved anything yet...
well not exactly nothing la kan...


POSITIVE THINKING MODE: let me list down what i've achieved this year...

1. Finish paying my car !! Huhuhu http://matcuoi.com *time to get a new one!! http://matcuoi.com

2. Bought a DSLR http://matcuoi.com

3. Learn how to take cool pictares....
*still working on it...

4. Have my own blog http://matcuoi.com

5. Make fish curry!! A big thanks to my aunt *CIK.. timecheh http://matcuoi.com

6. Buy things ONLINE!!! Wey!! dont laugh ok.. I'm still a noobie in that area
http://matcuoi.com ... and help a friend to buy something also... http://matcuoi.com


waaa... not bad eii.. hehehhe... accomplished somethings and learn something new along the way.. ok... tak jadi nak feel down then...


OK.....

I'm gonna make new resolutions now... *waa so early wanna start ahhh and this gonna cost me a lot of http://matcuoi.com

1. Get an Itouch!!!!

2. 18-250mm

3. F58

4. new big cage for my kitties

5. new car

6. color printer

7. ... to be added later....



HUH!!! what a semi long Expensive list...

I WISH I WAS BORN RICH!!! UWAAA....

this means that I have to save sommore $$$$$ lorrr...

Thursday, November 19, 2009

ITS dark out again

It has been raining every single day..
not that i should be complaining...
its something beyond my control..
Its GOD's doing..

But I hope
if it's raining here..
than it should be snowing in north and south pole..
and the himalaya's.. and every where that it should be snowing
so that the ice wont melt.. and the sea level wont rise... and
everything would be fine.. till the day i die...

and the prediction of apocalypse 2012 wont happen..


Ya I know.. i know..

I watched way too much documentary and movies
and its haunting me... http://matcuoi.com



Tuesday, November 17, 2009

I'm tired being me...

WHY OH WHY....


people like to push me around...

always asked me to do things...

make my life complicated..
makes me suffer....

play with my head...

makes me confuse...

playing with my sanity

makes me feel guilty....

weight me down...
WHY OH WHY....

cant people just leave me ALONE....

IN PEACE....

please....
STOP BORDERING ME...

MESSING WITH MY HEAD...

Cant u see that i'm
suffering... drowning...

a n d ~ i ' m ~ a b o u t ~ t o ~ g i v e ~ u p . . .


STOP acting like you care.. when you dont...

STOP pretending like what I did matters....

coz i know.. I DONT mean anything to you



Now that i know who and what you are...

and that I knew that....


YOU DONT KNOW ME....

Monday, November 16, 2009

THE ICEBERGS ARE MELTING!!!

i know.. i know... mostly people dont care bout the icebergs... but since the last 2 days i've been staying at home watching Natgeo and Discovery channel... it somehow does effect me.. and got me thinking... Based on Nostradamus prediction on 2012.. and the movie 2012 (no I haven't watch it yet... and i don't intend to... coz i'm chicken shit...i'm scared i cant sleep at night after watching that.. ya.. i know its not a horror movie.. but still.. it will got me thinking... what if....) it just that WHAT IF... that thing gonna happen.. the cosmic realignment and what not... all the predictions are there.. all the signs are there.. DOOMS day are coming... and i haven't been a good girl yet.. i haven't follow and do what my religion wants me to do..

And then i saw this documentary on natgeo about the iceberg and photograph taken by James Balog makes my stomach fills with butterflies... the iceberg are really melting... few photos taken by James Balog which i saw on the documentary...

The iceberg does look beautiful and mesmerising... but just imagine.. what if the whole ice sheets in antartica and greenland melts?? The ocean level going to be increase by 30cm... and people.... i dont know how to swim!!! our world might change into something like... waterworld movie.. aiya.. the one where Kevin Constner is the hero...


and the black ice.. is considered as dead ice... and there's not enough new snow to cover the old ice... then it will turn black... or something like that...


i dont know how many people read my blog.. but i dont care.... all i want to say is.... people.. please reduce your carbon footprint on the mother earth.. recycle everything.. try to reduce your garbage, electric consumption, water consumption, bring your own water bottle... stop buying those bottled mineral water, then you reduce one garbage.. switch off all those lights... well i did switch off my room light when ever i watch TV!! and also i know some of my frens like to do this.. on tv, on radio.. and they are somewhere else in the house... so please kengkawan... choose only one.. and if u on your lappie... just use the media player in it.. then tak payah on the radio outside already.. hence jimat electric...

Friday, November 13, 2009



WONDER GIRLS – NOBODY
credits to yesayoke & ndhas

You Know I still Love You Baby. And it will never change.

I want nobody nobody but you
I want nobody nobody but you.
nan dareun sarameun shirheo niga animyeon shirheo
(I don’t want anyone else, I can’t have anyone but you)
I want nobody nobody nobody nobody

nan shirheunde wae nal mireonaeryeogo hani jaggu naemareul deutji anhgo
(Why are you trying to push me away? I hate it. You ignore what I am saying)
wae ireohke dareun namja-ege nal bonaeryeo hani eoddeohke ireoni
(Why are you trying to send me to other guys? Why are you doing this?)

nal wihae geureohdan geu mal neon bujokhadaneun geu mal
(Saying that this is for my own good, Saying that you are just not enough)
ijen geumanhae neon nareul aljanha wae weonhajido anhneungeol gangyohae
(Stop it right now, you know me well enough, Why are you forcing what you know I don’t want?)


I want nobody nobody but you
I want nobody nobody but you.
nan dareun sarameun shirheo niga animyeon shirheo
(I don’t want anyone else, I can’t have anyone but you)
I want nobody nobody nobody nobody ………. 2x

nan joheunde nan haengbokhande neoman isseumyeon dwae deo baralge eobtneunde
(I’m satisfied, I’m happy, If I have you I don’t want for anything else)
nugul mannaseo haengbokharan geoya nan neol ddeonaseo haengbokhal su eobseo
(Who do you want me to meet and be happy with?, I can’t be happy away from your side)

nal wihae geureohdan geu mal neon bujokhadaneun geu mal
(Saying that this is for my own good, Saying that you are just not enough)
mari an dwoeneun marigan geol wae molla niga eobshi eoddeohge haengbokhae

(Why can’t you understand that it makes no sense?, How can I be happy without you?)

I want nobody nobody but you
I want nobody nobody but you.
nan dareun sarameun shirheo niga animyeon shirheo
(I don’t want anyone else, I can’t have anyone but you)
I want nobody nobody nobody nobody ………. 2x

I don’t want nobody body. I don’t want nobody body.
naneun jeongmal niga animyeon niga animyeon shilhdan maryeo-ahhh
(Really, if it is not you…I hate it!)

I want nobody nobody but you
I want nobody nobody but you.
nan dareun sarameun shirheo niga animyeon shirheo
(I don’t want anyone else, I can’t have anyone but you)
I want nobody nobody nobody nobody ………. 2x

rap.....
Back to the days when we were so young and wild and free
modeunge neomuna ggumman gateodeon geuddaero doragago shipeunde
wae jaggu nareul mireo naeryeohae
(Everything was just like a dream, I want to go back to those times
Why do you keep on pushing me away?)

Why do you push me away? I don’t want nobody, nobody
Nobody, nobody but you.

IT HAS ARRIVED!!!

This morning was a bit dull and i was a bit down...
I think... its the weather la...

it rained last nite and hence the morning laziness to wake up... Then I was doing my own work... paper shifting... thinking... i's going to be a very long boring day... and suddenly... a knock on my door.. telling me... there's a parcel for me... My heart jump!! could it be??!!??? ... the thing that i prayed hard to reach my door in good conditions... that i wont get burned coz i purchased it on EBAY!! n it was my first time purchasing stuff from ebay ..http://matcuoi.com

any how... this is it....http://matcuoi.com


I was so dang excited... i was jumping around doing the chicken dance.. and smiling cheek to cheek... quickly grab my cammy n then while unboxing... took few pictures of him.... hahaha..

more of him....

Ya I know....
I managed to get him
together with

Muira!!!

http://matcuoi.com



AND THIS IS WHAT HE SAID.......




he... he.. he... for those who donno what the heck this is.. check out.. HERE!!








I haven't read the manga yet..... haven't found it yet in M'sia shores... or maybe i didnt noticed it before...
hmmm... maybe i should find it n read it..


any how.. i just love this figurine... will take more photos with him later...



I'M SOOOOO HAPPYYY!!!!

Thursday, November 12, 2009

im super bored

hmm... how should i put it.. i'm sooooo boooreeedd..

ya i know... i have millions of things to do... like facebooking, flickring, photographing, computing, kite-flying, video watching, music listening and whatever activities i normally do...

but somehow..


there's always an empty hole in me... something that none of the activities can fill... i wonder why.. i did try to make myself busy.. with lots of things to fill up my time... but there's always that emptiness.. that loneliness...

Maybe i'm just tired.. with all this pretending.. to be happy..

does anyone mind if i just let go...????

Breathe in Breathe Out... Mat Kearney


Breathe in breathe out
Tell me all of your doubt
If everybody bleeds this way
just the same
Breath in breathe out
Move on and break down
If everyone.. goes away
I will stay
We push and pull,
and I fall down sometimes
I'm not letting go,
you hold the other line

Cause there is a light
In your eyes, in your eyes
Hold on, hold tight
From out of your sight
Everything keeps moving on, moving on,
Hold on hold tight
Make it throught another night
Everyday there comes the sun with the dawn
We push and pull, and I fall down sometimes
I'm not letting go, you hold the other line

Cause there is a light
In your eyes, in your eyes
There is a light
In your eyes, in your eyes

Breath in and breath out (x4)

Look left, look right
to the moon and the night
Everything under the stars in your arms
There is a light
In your eyes, in your eyes
There is a light (x4)

Wednesday, November 11, 2009

Oh what a gloomy day..

The snow melted again over this side of the world...

its been raining either in the morning.. which makes me feel lazy to get off the bed.. or in the afternoon.. which makes me wanna go home n sleep... which i cant... or in the evening... on my way back home.. hence i'll get caught in the jammed.. regretting.. i should've reach home n rest in my bed... and sometimes.. at night.. which i have no complaints.. due to the fact that i can sleep nicely... but then morning comes... *sigh..... why i have to get up n go to work.... me loves to sleep sommore http://matcuoi.com


& somehow.. it does effect me mentally n physically..it makes me feel lazier than usual...... not that i'm the energetic type...oohh but i think i do when I want to do something that i like n love.. something that i have the intention of getting some things done... like... photographing my kitties http://matcuoi.com

ahh now i felt slightly energetic... maybe a photo of the bright sky would help to change the mood... let see whether i can attach a sky photo which i took last few months before the rainy season... here goes...
..........


hey.. would you look at that... hehehe... i did it.. i did it... *jump jump..........

ME = PROUD.. http://matcuoi.com

ohhh and i can see the sun shines through my office window...

Tuesday, November 10, 2009

I've made it...

Heiya..... me make it to the blogging world..
muahhhaaaaahahaha....

well to be honest.. i've been thinking of starting a blog for quite sometime now... but been busy with my other projectsessss...... (if there's such a word). Looking forward in sharing thousand of things that i see.. or feel or.. what ever things i feel like blogging..... woahhh..... something to ponder...

me = blogger..... sssuuuwwweeetttt!!!! ^_^

truely.. im a jane of all trades... a master of nothing...

ok let me go n wonder around first.. come back later with lots of new"cool" things to be add in here...

cheers...